Moving to the Front of the Line

How many of you are truly willing to be 1st to cross the finish-line, reach your goal, be at the top of the mountain?

When I was younger, I had no problem being the 1st or doing things differently from others …

Over time, however, I’ve became a little less likely by putting others 1st, taking the backseat and literally conformed to its better to Give than Receive , which I believe I translated into its better to Give-Up, compromise, or settle rather than to succeed.

If you can relate, you know exactly where I’m coming from.

After becoming more aware of my divine nature, I began remembering what would happen when I created or asked from a place of feeling good, meaning feeling good to me and only me.

Well of course wonderful, sometimes magical experience happened.
I notice that as these things were happening, it was easy to share my joy with my family and friends whom understood me and my inner inspiration.

Yesterday however, I notice when I was feeling tired how easy it was for me to slip back into the pattern of settling…

Here’s the scenario, now others may not have connected the dots, I know it comes from my open awareness which makes it easy to shift once its been presented to me.

I arrived at the bus station after a long workday, and my bus was delayed. I waited patiently and as the platform began to fill, I saw myself standing back allowing everyone to go forward, partly annoyed at the delay, tired, a bit cranky and cold.
Dreaming of my car I realized the platform kept filling more and I was even further back.

So I made, what I thought easier choice, it was a quick decision to go the longer route. Deciding that it would be great just to sit and not be in the cold etc…
So I convinced myself and off I went.

When I arrive home, over an hour later, my son says what took you so long?
He ask or more of a statement “why did you go the long route instead moving up to the “front of the line”
Those words rocked my world as I began justifying why I choose the long route.
And as he laughed and sound so much like me, I realized what I had done.

I did this last week with a great vacation opportunity and allowed my self now to be wait-listed.

Many other mini flashes of how I do that back step.
How many times do I move to the back of the line and then settle for the long route?

Am I willing to move to the front of the line?

I was grateful for the awareness that has now triggered my shift and opening up my proactive conscious creation even more.

I ask How can I do this better… And I say thanks for the present/gift being brought to me in this moment.

Today’s Mantra

I am willing to be first
I am willing to lead/guide the way
I am willing to be First

Much Love and Joy
JF